About Bill

Birder, cat-lover, pilot, poet. Former lounge lizard, pauper, pagan, lifeguard, chauffeur,cop and martial artist, turned pacifist addiction writer. Tries to be a good husband, father and brother, and makes a decent friend. Likes to take pictures. Stumbling down the Middle Path, one day at a time.

Why should I stay In Treatment?

If you hang around treatment centers for any length of time, you will eventually hear someone say (or say yourself) something on the order of “I already know this stuff.  Why should I stay here?”

This makes perfect sense, from the standpoint of someone in very early recovery.  In treatment, there are things that get repeated over and over.  That’s because we learn by repetition.  If we were studying for a part in a play, we would think nothing of going over our lines and actions repeatedly.  In recovery, we’re trying to replace old ways of instinctive thinking with new ones.  Repetition helps, but it can be the “same ol’ same ol’” after a while.

We know, however, that addicts often need a second or third trip through treatment before they actually learn what they need to know to change old behavior and stay clean and sober.  More…

(From the Sunrise Detox Blog, which I write.)

$100,000 and a Dream: One Gambler’s Lotto Meltdown

Glamorous tales abound of high-rollers losing millions in a night, but the sad truth is most gambling addicts go bankrupt one scratch card at a time.

http://www.thefix.com/content/scratch-card-gambling-addiction7901

Will it be harder to recover if you don’t believe in God?

If we believe in a loving god who cares what happens to us, looks after us, and answers prayers, the peace that our belief brings will unquestionably be a great support in recovery.  On the other hand, if we believe that a god will take care of us simply because we ask, without our putting any effort into our recovery process, then it is quite possible that believing could hinder our recovery.  Likewise, if we were raised to believe in a harsh, punishing god who will make us pay for our transgressions, we may find that we are emotionally unable to deal with the implications and may so totally reject the “God Thing” (as many of us call it) that we end up throwing our recovery out with our religious beliefs.
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In Search of the Real Bill W.

Bill Wilson, ca. 1939 - The Fix

Bill Wilson was no saint. He smoked like a chimney and acted like a pig—cheating on his loyal wife and demanding a glass of whisky on his deathbed. Working with him was sometimes so difficult that decades after his death, many colleagues were still angry at his behavior. The January 1971 nurse’s logs for his last days at Stepping Stones, the house in Bedford Hills he shared with his wife, Lois, show an unhappy man struggling for breath—he was dying of emphysema—who repeatedly asked for a drink and was irritated when he didn’t get one.

And yet. If there is a special place in heaven reserved for those who permanently change the world for the better, Bill W. is certainly there.

Read more: http://www.thefix.com/content/in-search-of-the-real-bill-w8998

When AA Alone Isn’t Working — The Fix

Some addicts believe that the 12 steps can solve all their problems. But they’re designed to treat addiction—not depression, anxiety, and the like. So how do you know when you need a therapist, and what kind do you need?

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Why Do Addicts Keep Using Despite The Consequences? — Part 2

Previously we mentioned that the pleasure center is a portion of the brain over which we have no conscious control, and that it can be stimulated by a variety of chemicals — some of them produced inside our bodies and some that we introduce from outside.  We said that the pleasure center rewards us for activities that it interprets as contributing in some way to our survival, whether they be social interactions, exercising, or more prosaic things such as eating.  We also stated that these pleasurable feelings, when pursued too far or for too long can create problems.  Now we need to examine how that happens….

http://sunrisedetox.com/blog/2011/08/24/addiction-alcoholism-compulsion-2/

2010 in review

The stats helper monkeys at WordPress.com mulled over how this blog did in 2010, and here’s a high level summary of its overall blog health:

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The Blog-Health-o-Meter™ reads This blog is on fire!.

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A helper monkey made this abstract painting, inspired by your stats.

The average container ship can carry about 4,500 containers. This blog was viewed about 14,000 times in 2010. If each view were a shipping container, your blog would have filled about 3 fully loaded ships.

 

In 2010, there were 68 new posts, growing the total archive of this blog to 431 posts. There were 10 pictures uploaded, taking up a total of 692kb. That’s about a picture per month.

The busiest day of the year was January 7th with 139 views. The most popular post that day was Why We Don’t Get Better Immediately: Post-acute Withdrawal Syndrome (PAWS).

 

Where did they come from?

The top referring sites in 2010 were digital-dharma.net, gettingpastyourpast.wordpress.com, guineveregetssober.com, sunrisedetox.com, and deanesmay.com.

Some visitors came searching, mostly for post acute withdrawal syndrome, committing an alcoholic, post acute withdrawal symptoms, post acute withdrawal, and can you commit an alcoholic.

Attractions in 2010

These are the posts and pages that got the most views in 2010.

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Why We Don’t Get Better Immediately: Post-acute Withdrawal Syndrome (PAWS) May 2008
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Q&A December 2008

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Can you commit an alcoholic or other drug addict? July 2009

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Articles May 2008
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If you get drunk once a week, are you an alcoholic? August 2009
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Why I Haven’t Been Posting Much Lately

Both of my faithful readers will by now have noticed that I’m not posting very regularly on this site. It’s not though lack of interest, and I didn’t relapse (in fact, I just celebrated my 21st sober anniversary on 9/14/10).

Thing is, I’ve taken a part-time job writing for a recovery site, and I don’t have time to maintain both blogs. Since the other (paid) job covers the same territory, and since I have the potential to reach more people, it was a no-brainer. I’ll continue to post here from time to time, but it will be irregular at best.

I invite you all to subscribe to my posts at the Sunrise Detox Blog.   (Click the thingy at the bottom left of the page.) Thanks for visiting WhatMeSober.Com, and thanks for your interest.

Keep on keepin’ on,

Bill

Is Marijuana Addictive?

I received this letter as a comment on another site. It is reproduced with the permission of the writer. Edited for clarity in one place (brackets).

I’ve been smoking pot for about 3 years now, and was smart enough never to get into anything hard because that would equal death.

Around 16 yrs. of age I was put in a juvinile program “rehab” due to all my marijuana tickets. Things were alright for the first couple weeks without out my bud, but as they days went on things became very dysfunctional. I always felt stoned without out the euphoria. My reflexes were slow, I was socially impaired, i couldn’t concentrate, and had mad swings of emotions. I’ve never cryed as much as I did that year. I felt suicidal and very depressed.

I’ve been going on what I call smoking binges for awhile now. I smoke literally all day. I couldn’t work or go to school, because by the time i smoked a few bowls i would be completely sober in a half hour. I had to be high. My tolerance became to high and the bud was not enough, no matter how much i smoked i couldn’t get high because i always felt fried, wihtout the euphoria.

I was wondering if PAWS could [result from] HEAVY MARIJUANA USE? I’ve been having these symptoms for over 3 years now, because everytime i sober up i make usually to 4 months and every thing is so dysfunctional and scary i relapse into another binge. THank you SO MUCH FOR THE SUPPORT.

The First Step Is No Theory — Part 1

All 12-step programs use some variation of the following as their first step: “We admitted we were powerless over (insert addiction here)–that our lives had become unmanageable.”  Many of us had trouble admitting to ourselves that we were powerless, and in some cases were unable to come to terms with the idea that our lives were unmanageable.  So here’s as simple an explanation as I can come up with.

http://sunrisedetox.com/blog/2010/08/27/the-first-step-is-no-theory-part-1/