Step 10 is the compass that tells us if we are on course in our program and in life. ~ Joe C.
When we were young, we were under terrific pressure to conform. To begin with, there were our families of origin. We depended on them for getting our needs met, although for many of us addicts that often didn’t work out too well. Nonetheless, with nowhere else to turn we settled for whatever we got and tried to become whoever our family dynamic needed us to be.
Later there were the attitudes and customs of our friends, peers at school, other adults in our lives, and strangers to whom we wished to appear a particular way. All of these people had their effects on the ways we look at the world, and the things we believe about it. In all these groups, there were pressures to conform.
Because of our desire to fit in, we adopted many of the attitudes and outlooks of our peers. This led to our current or past attitudes about the world and the people in it — about drugs, social norms, pornography, sobriety, fidelity with partners, honesty, and similar values. We accepted many of these attitudes without thinking, and they became part of our world view for better or worse. We were, without realizing it, thrust into a mold that shaped who we are today.
There’s a good chance that our old shapes won’t fit well into our new lives in recovery. Some of the values we learned, and more importantly, many of the things we came to believe about ourselves, may need to be rooted out. We may have to re-define who and what we are in order to fit into the new lives we’ve chosen for ourselves.
That’s the job of the 12 Steps, particularly steps 4, 5, and 10. Those are the ones where we take a really honest look at our past lives and how we’re living today. They and the other steps are the templates for our new, self-designed lives.
After all, do we really want to live out a script written by someone else?